week 15

Tomorrow will see the beginning of week 15. I saw my midwife on tuesday and got to hear that heart warming galloping heart beat that you can never tire of hearing. It is reassuring to hear the little heart beat ticking as sometimes you begin to wonder if you are pregnant at all. It doesn't matter how many children you have had, every pregnancy is as exciting as the first plus you can relax and take it more in your stride with each consecutive baby. My midwife thinks all is in order and I will go for my "routine" scan in 4 weeks time. My midwives are not advocates for scans but respect the fact that some of us just like the reassurance and excitement of them. Maybe it is for selfish reasons as I am not going to abort a baby if there is a defect but at least you can have a bit of time to be mentally prepared.

David has been running a Biblical world view course at church on a tuesday night, according to feedback I have received he is doing really well. This does not surprise me as he is very funny and great at teaching. My point here though is that while he was away last Tuesday I sat on my bed with my feet raised (like every good pregnant woman should) and asked God to teach me something new, Well, did he what. David will never want to leave me on my own again now. My train of thought went like this: we are going to have a full quiver of children, wow, but is a full quiver 5 or 7 kids? I decided to look it up out of curiosity. My search brought up topics on "full quiver" a name for a group of people that share the same views on contraception or lack of. I began to read with my initial thoughts being, crazy, hippy, pregnant forever people but as I read on and went to various other sites I actually started to prick up my ears and take notice. I am getting some books to do some serious reading but from what I picked up it goes a little like this. The Bible teaches that children are a blessing, that husbands and wives should not hold themselves back from each other except for prayer ( not because you are fertile at that time). At present we have been natural family planners and the thought of having another baby after feeling so crook at the beginning of this pregnancy was not my idea of something to be even thought about at the moment so I was not out to hear this right then. I love the idea of more children but the first part of pregnancy, Yuck!!! My reasons are totally selfish. The Bible also talks about God opening and closing the womb.
As I said earlier, my friend is going to lend be some reading material so I will blog about this when I can speak with more authority on the subject. God is definitely keeping this close to my thoughts.
I know that it brings up lots of debates and controversy amongst christians but if the bible is clear on this then who am I to say no to God, do I know better than him? Should I be the decider if a new life should come into this world? Does God really rule every area of my life or only the parts that I think he should? Who knows best if my body or our finances or our family can cope with more children, God or me?
I am not turning into some fanatic, weird, home-schooling, home birthing freak although maybe I sound like it, I just want to be obedient to Gods word and if that includes more children and more pregnancies then bring it on. We seriously are a down to earth fun loving "normal" family but I'm sure some people have the first impressions I did. Investigate for yourselves as I did and maybe the pin prick of conviction may also fall on you.


P.S I don't really now Davids view on this yet so we will both need to investigate further.